开斋好大！

什么？把Jusco 里的pizzahut 包下来就为了让他们开斋？不是7点半吗？现在才六点半！还有整整一个小时！把位子全空着，把特地前往用餐的客人都赶走！岂有此理！就不做其他人的生意了吗？再看看其他快餐店(kfc,mcd)，都一样！好像都不是我们容生之地。现在还很早啊！难道他们不知道就这样等会少赚好几单生意吗？笨死了！不公平！不公平！应该是先到先得才对！结果我和姐都白跑一趟了 算了啦！我们这可爱的国土啊！始终免不了会遇到这种不公平的事~


p/s:有酱好的福利，我也想开斋了，哈哈！

Irreversible~

You know what?
 The results was released. Unexpectedly... I didn't get through...
My eyes were swollen...as i cried
But it just can't change the fact...that I just get stuck in the middle..
Why is it so hard for me to get the passing? I really can't understand why!
Spent my effort to study but yet the results still like that!
I really really can't stand it this time...
Bursting in tears when i called my friend...
Thank you so much for lending me your ears
And so sorry that i didn't tell others about this... Cause i don't want to disturb...furthermore it is so heart-breaking when people keep asking how and why? and what you gonna do now?...these kind of questions...  i really appreciate all of your concerns...but just too hard for me to face you all now...

And now.. what i gonna do is to find a job...to switch myself to a working life rather than non stop studying without seeing results... maybe to learn something new and gain experience somewhere...and try again each time with 1 paper to see how it goes...I just leave it to fate...If can pass through then good...if can't then just accept it and continue with my work...Although feel shameful as i don't have a degree in hand...with just a partial qualifications... life still has to go on... I know my mum n dad are really worried about me...I really feel thankful that they are very supportive and didn't blame me for not passing...they didn't put pressure on me at anytime...they said they will support whatever decision i made! I feel so warm and my tears rolled down with lots and lots of regret...

Hope the bad luck will go off soon!

最近在干嘛？

最近除了上课以外，就爱泡在家里，上上网，听听歌，是很无聊，但我已经习惯了，而且还蛮享受在其中的。
最近在疯狂追看华人星光大道，就因为从第一集就开始看，所以接下来的几集也不会错过咯！但和别人不一样的是，喜欢的并不是大热门并且备受看好的那一位，而是她---

相比之下我觉得她比较自然，声音舒服好听！

Just to Write Something

Have left my blog for quite some time...it's  time to write something on it.
Holidays after the exam...so what am i doing for these couples of weeks? Oh...is such a waste of time i would say...guess what...you are right!again staying at home...'running through' endless drama series...outing? no.
Such a silly way of spending the break that i' m longing for. .and know what? This week will be the last week for the break.and i end up doing nothing...argh....

I have 2 last papers to take for this coming sem...plus 3 still waiting for results...Friends around me are  graduating...when is my turn then?huh....an unknown answer.




Have to find my way...keep telling myself:)

又喊累了！

今天的我特别特别的累，可能是上了六小时的corporate reporting, post here, post there, credit income statement, debit SOFP, 还有做不完的adjustments 。脑袋被数字占据一整个下午，人变呆了。眼睛望着白板，看似很专心，但其实很多时候都没把讲师的话听进去。大概是用脑用太多了吧，今天的我比平时来的累~

这时候，如果可以到海边走走，吹吹风该有多好！:(

犀利人妻的那股热

最近，犀利人妻这部剧很火红，我一看就不可收拾。很喜欢女主角隋棠，戏演得好好，更喜欢里头的主题曲和插曲，林凡的《五天几年》， 《多情》，《这样爱你好可怕》， 郁可唯的《指望》， 《暖心》都是我近期很爱的歌曲。极力推荐这部剧！还有它的歌，真的很棒！

我不会长期住下去！

一切都settled down 了。搬去了wangsa maju， 找了一个很靠近LRT STATION 的双层排屋，一个远房亲戚的老家，租了间主人房。在屋外就可以猜想到屋内的情况应该不会好到哪里去。果真拉开门，手立刻沾满了门上厚厚的灰尘。踏进屋里，扑鼻而来的是一股难闻气味，一股充满灰尘却很久没被清理过的味道，里头就像是密不通风的储藏室，什么杂物都有。


我的房间如今还算过得去，是我花了很多时间清理才能够住人的。每天回到家，就会飞奔到房间去，因为实在没办法在客厅多呆一秒。曾经有一股冲动想把它打扫干净，但工程实在太大了，housemates 们都不理会，我也不好把责任扛在自己身上，况且我也没那么多时间。


算一算，我已在这里生存了快三个星期，虽已渐渐的习惯了这个地方，但这个恶略的环境终究还是个噩梦，好想脱离的地方！要我长期住在这间家，不可能！

又再次的失败

当事实摆在眼前的时候，我只有崩溃大哭，

眼泪滑落的瞬间，心狠狠的抽搐， 

再多的泪，下一秒我都必须把它吞下，去面对。

给自己打气：你不能放弃！也放弃不了！

ps：我想我真的太高估自己了~

love.寂寞

摘自一本书" When there is life, there is stuggle".

 Love is Telephone
Love is a telephone which always keep silent when you longing for a call, but rings when you are not ready for it.


Love is a telephone which is always busy. When you are ready to devote yourself to or even ready to die for love, you only find, to your disappointment, the line is occupied by someone else, and you are greeted by a busy line


Love is a telephone, but it is difficult to seize the right time for dialing and you will let slip the opportunity if your call is either too early or too late


Love is telephone which has crossed lines.As this usually happens to you unexpected. Your line will either cross or be crossed. Both cases are referred to as 'triangles'

* Happy for those of them who had found their ms and mr. right. Love is in the air! Wish all of them in great great happiness:)

怎么了？ 今天，我又寂寞了。听着这首歌，寂寞的感觉又涌上心头。朋友们恋爱了，还是一个人，觉得寂寞。朋友要回国了，觉得寂寞。一个人对着电脑看着书，觉得寂寞。一个人坐在电视机前面坐久了，也会觉得寂寞。

张小娴说，只要你学会和寂寞相处，就正如你学会了沉默。沉默，可以让你听见更多声音； 孤独，让你听自己的内心。那一刻，你已忘记了寂寞。看来， 我学会了跟寂寞独处，也跟它做了好朋友。

寂寞的时候，会听听自己喜欢的歌，躺在沙发上想有的没的，就这样过一天。在朋友面前，不时会脸色一沉。朋友问我，你有心事吗？ 我回答不出来，因为连我自己也搞不懂自己到底怎么了。 有点不习惯人群了，因为不知怎么和别人沟通，除了上课时间都不想外出了，成为典型的宅女。

灰 蒙 蒙 的 夜 晚 睡 意 又 不 知 躲 到 那 去，

一 转 身, 孤 单 已 躺 在 身 旁.........

一个人生活

一个人生活，歌里叙述的寂寞有点像我。不太喜欢林育群的版本，林凡的比较有feel~

叶子在窗外轻轻摇动
人行道没有行人走过
镜子里的我很不像我
自从你离开了我变得很软弱
你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不曾爱过
冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情怎么会是这个结果
叶子在窗外轻轻摇动
人行道没有行人走过
镜子里的我很不像我
自从你离开了我变得很软弱
你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不曾爱过
感觉如果要走谁能说 NO
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情是个梦而我睡过头
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情是个梦而我睡过头

Loneliness

Being alone travelling from Seremban to KL for already three weeks. So far so good. This is what I can say. Boarding the bus early in the morning was miserable. It was around 7.00am in the morning when I woke up. It has never been a hard task for me to wake up early every day as I already get used to it.


Reaching my class, as usual, i will sit at the forth row at the center, the seat at the left corner. As i got nobody to talk to, so,  timidly i sit at my place, observing around and ear-dropping people's talking.   Have i take the initiative to talk to others? No way! I' m too shy to do that. Whatever~The class seems strange to me, the environment and also the people around me. I have seen some familiar faces but unfortunately I don't know them well.  Many of the students there are hanging around in gangs, chit-chatting and discussing problems among themselves while the hardworking one will keep asking lecturers questions at the break time.


Today was an unlucky day. It started to rain cats and dogs when i stepped out from class  at 5.15pm. I got  no umbrella , so I just ran as fast as I can. As the results, my shoes got all wet, and extremely sticky inside. The stupid car drove past splashing some water on me. Oh God! At that moment, i felt so helpless of being alone. (thanks qiyang for the umbrella :)  )


I  tried my very best to get used to everything, studying alone, eating alone,  boarding the bus and LRT alone. I tell myself that this is what i will face when start working in KL afterwards. But still, the feeling of being alone was so bad...... :(


Today in the bus back Seremban,  I had a nice chat with a friendly Malay lady. She started talking to me when the crazy bus driver brought us to the wrong road with the heaviest traffic, and we ended up reaching Seremban an hour late. We chatted all the way back and the whole conversation was in Malay.  Not too bad... Haha~

要开学了~

2011年2月2日                                                                                                                                     晴
今天是2011年的第二天。放假了几个星期，整个人变得懒散，后天就要独自一人到KL上课，心情有点复杂，又紧张又有点担心。这一次我打算冒险，一口气拿完三张papers 。一星期上三天课，其中两天上有两节课，每节课三小时，还有一天到9.30pm。还没尝试过，但一定会很累...巴士，LRT 转来转去，不晕才怪！哈！不管了！要开始为开学做准备了！